Hi Friend,

It's been a very long time since I pressed publish on this newsletter.

Did you notice?
Last time I did, I was sitting in the middle of the Mayan Jungle, waiting for my ride as I was about to embark on an initiation.

Fast forward almost 2 months and your favorite newsletter is back. In this issue, you get the juicy bits & magical pieces of my experience.

Packaged for practical application, on your path to Self-Mastery and creative expression.

This remains at the core of my musings, and my original intentions remain intact, only amplified.

You're also noticing there's a visual and platform change that took place.

Funny how this works, but the previous newsletter platform decided to shut down its service in mid-January.

That's it from housekeeping.

Without further ado, let's dive right in.

The reason for my digital absence

I'm still integrating the magical experience of my Mayan Jungle initiation.

It wasn't a plant medicine retreat.

But it sure did feel like it.

Sometimes the most potent medicine is you.

While I was there in the retreat center, I intuitively took on a digital fast.

Made the decision to hit pause on my content creation game.

Including this newsletter.

And so 2 weeks of skipping that beat turned into 3. 3 turned to 4 and here we are.

The last day of February.

1/6th of 2023 is no more.

2 months warped by like The Enterprise skipped a universe or two.

Yes, this is a Star Trek reference.

A testament to how rapidly habits shift.

How swiftly, consistency drops off.

It's not like I had nothing to write about.

Quite the contrary.

So much had happened that it would be a challenge to summarize in a single newsletter.

The context

Back to the Jungle initiation.

It was magickal and heart-melting.

Surrendering to the flow and natural intelligence of synchronistic guidance came effortlessly.

It felt like a psychedelic trip the entire time.

Communing with my unconscious self as if I'd be at the peak of a breathwork session.

I reconnected with my unique superpowers and uncovered a new personal power myth.

My unconscious self delivered it using symbolic language and imagery.

If you haven't heard me speak of archetypes before, that's practically it.

An archetype is essentially a pattern, a fancy way of saying structure.

Because modern psychologists are a bit anxious about speaking to our unconscious in terms of structure. The non-Jungian, Edlerian, folk at least.

So that is to say, there's a repeatable behavior pattern in me, in you, and in every human you meet.

And, it's unconscious.

It's driven by our subconscious self.

Up to the point when it becomes conscious.

Better yet, when you become conscious of it.

And the easiest way to become conscious of your unconscious self is by looking in the mirror.

No, not that mirror Narcissus (remind me to unpack that Archetype at some point).

The proverbial, metaphorical mirror.

The relational mirror of people in your sphere of influence and awareness.

The most intimate relationships, whether romantic, platonic, collaborative, are the most intense mirrors.

Simply because of the frequency with which you stare into them.

The other kind of intensity however.

It doesn't come from frequency.

But clarity.

The darker the surface, the more reflective.

And this is essentially my personal myth.

Proteus, in Greek mythology.

The ever-elusive shape-shifter, god of versatility and oracular future telling.

Assuming the qualities and morphing into whatever is presented to him.

On a practical level, you might be wondering, this translates to the ability to clearly reflect the subconscious patterns of behavior.

But it also means that without solitude and focus, one can fall prisoner to the shadows of those around.

Which is why 2023 is a year of focus and boundary setting in my books.

The integration

If you read the previous chapter through the lens of myth, you grasped the intensity and visceral reality of this experience.

But given most of our modern culture suffers from misunderstanding mythology altogether, it feels appropriate to frame it:

" A myth is an image in terms of which we try to make sense of the world."

-Alan Watts

"Myth is the secret opening through which the inexhaustible energies of the cosmos pour into human cultural manifestations."

-Joseph Campbel

A disclaimer:

A myth is therefore not to be misunderstood as a literal factographic depiction of an event. It's not to be read like a historical account of events.

It's the opposite of literal.

But that doesn't mean it's not true or factual.

It speaks to the deeper layers of our psyche in symbolic terms.

Like a finger pointing to the moon. Not to be mistaken for the moon.

Glad we made this official.

Now back to the story:

The direct experience of heart-based intuitive high accompanied me throughout my stay in Tulum Mexico.

But like anything that goes up, must inevitably come down.

Greeted upon my return to Prague was a swift descent into the valleys.

Sure, the change from practically summer weather, jungle greenery, and oceanic blues takes its toll.

But I also descended into another episode of illness.

Feeling drained, lethargic, and like moving from the couch required me to scrape every electron in my body.

A significant energetic effort.

I don't perceive these "downtimes" like most people would I guess.

I see it as upgrades like I'm parking my vessel at the repair shop.

In the meantime, I have all the time in the world to contemplate and consolidate my psyche.

To deal with the constraints of occupying the physical plane of existence.

And this contrast was much needed for me to symbolically and physically land this plane.

To translate and make practical all of these peeks behind the curtain of the ordinary states of consciousness.

It's quite phenomenal to look upon the entirety of one's life and see a grander pattern emerge.

To recognize you're always guided by the unseen and unconscious.

That you are always at the wheel, whether asleep or awake.

Without exception, authoring the story of your life.

Each trial is but a gift.

A kaleidoscope of "medicine" to serve those on a similar path.

The Actionable

Let's switch gears.

From accounting for the digital gap to recounting my story.

From the storytime to transmission.

This is my message to you:

Surrender your mind to your heart.

Lose your mind to come back to your senses.

Let go of the need to explain everything away.

But also embrace this part of you. Don't make it wrong.

You are beautiful.

You are magnificent.

You are precious.

Your heart is brilliant.

Your mind is luminous.

Your magick is powerful.

You are seen.

You are felt.

You are heard.

Drop your armor but for a moment.

You'll get it back.

Don't worry.

You are safe.

Remember, you're always equipped with everything you need in any given moment.

Always!

Without exception.

Trust.

Breathe.

Breathe deeply.

Full belly inhale.

All the way up filling your chest.

Do it. Don't just read.

Exhale gently, slowly.

Make a sigh on your way down.

Chant an OHM on the exhale.

Sing with your throat.

It doesn't matter how.

Just do it.

There's no right or wrong.

Laugh.

Smile.

Cry.

Feel.

Tune into your cock & balls/pussy.

Feel the throbbing pulsation.

Embrace your erotic nature.

Learn to dance with it.

It's your creative source energy.

Don't just wank/rub away to Pornhub.

Channel your creative power.

Use it to give birth to a beautiful dream.

Dream.

Lucid.

Big.

Bold.

Embarrassingly ambitious.

Pursue your heart's desire.

Use your mind to develop a plan.

Use your gut to make it happen.

Remember always to breathe.

And drink water.

Clean.

Infuse it with your intentions.

Live life like everything is a ceremony.

You are the magician making i-imagination materialize.

It's simple.

Never forget the biases.

Even if you forget.

Be gentle with yourself.

Treat yourself as you would your best friend.

Drop all of the things no longer in service to your most glorious dream.

Self-love.

Self-power.

Self-knowledge.

You got this!

If you're waiting for a sign.

A permission slip.

Drop me a message.

I'm opening space for 2 individuals to work with me 1:1.